…about trying to overcome something you are afraid of is that it is hard. On some days things go well, and on others you stumble and fall. It seems that there is never a lack of opportunities to give up and consign yourself to your “fate” or the notion that you just can’t cut it. The opportunities well up frequently as “butterflies in the stomach” as soon as you are faced with what you are trying to overcome.
I’m very familiar with the sensation. I felt it the first time I played lacrosse. I felt it every time I took to the pitch for a rugby match. I felt it the first time I stepped into the boxing ring, when I went skydiving, and when I interviewed with BCG.
Nowadays, I feel it when it comes to public speaking. I was doing well trying to address it during my first year at Kellogg, when I took Managerial Communications and jumped on a lot of opportunities to practice, but this year I’ve had far less opportunities (and I’ve taken my eyes off the prize), so I’ve noticed myself regressing toward the mean. It’s annoying. And it’s frustrating.
The first 10 minutes of the Sneak Peek panel I was on today did not go well. I felt the dread creeping up over me as my turn to introduce myself approached. I knew it was going to be messy, and it was. Fortunately, after those 10 minutes, I settled down and started enjoying the experience, but man…those first 10 minutes were intense.
Pretty much every time I take on anything that involves public speaking, I know that there is a 70/30 chance that I’ll feel that surge of dread, but it’s a risk that I have to take because otherwise I’d just have to give up…and that’s not how I roll. And sometimes the cards don’t work in my favor, and I wind up embarrassed, but sometimes, things go my way and I see the potential that awaits if I just keep trying.
I know this was a self-serving post, but I needed to get it out of me. It’s times like today that I’m grateful to be one stubborn fellow, because no matter how many times I fall off the horse, I’m going to get right back on.
Now, let’s wrap this up with an inspirational song! Expletive yeah!